We have all been through things in life, some things we bring on ourselves and some things that happen to us which we have no control over.
I have been through divorce, something I never thought I would have to deal with.
Was it my fault? Absolutely .
I was always very much in love with my wife, you could say I adored the ground she walked on. We would do so many things together greatly enjoying each others company. I would say we had a really good marriage.
How could it go so wrong?
I was not guarding my heart.
Like most couples we had friends who we would spend time with. One of the ladies we knew was going through a difficult time with varying degrees of things going on in her life. I had some ideas for solutions for her challenges, so would spend time with her helping where I could. Slowly I found myself spending more and more time with her, as this continued I would think about her more and more.
I was in dangerous territory but could not see it.
I continued on thinking it is just a bit of fun. There is no danger in this, anyway I am in control. The fact is I was not in control at all. My emotions were so far out of control that everyone else must have surely seen it, but i was totally blind. I got to a point where I so much longed to be with her and sincerely believed she was the answer to all my problems. If only I could be with her then every thing would be fine, I would be living my dream life.
How deceived I was.
I was willing to break up a family and hurt all those who I loved so dearly for my own selfish desires.
That was more than 10 years ago and many time over that 10 years I have ask myself "how could you do that to the people who loved and trusted you?" I really don't have a reasonable answer. I just don't know what to say. I was totally out of control.
At all cost GUARD YOUR HEART.
Make sure you stay in control of your life.
Enjoy your Life,
Dave.
I have been through divorce, something I never thought I would have to deal with.
Was it my fault? Absolutely .
I was always very much in love with my wife, you could say I adored the ground she walked on. We would do so many things together greatly enjoying each others company. I would say we had a really good marriage.
How could it go so wrong?
I was not guarding my heart.
Like most couples we had friends who we would spend time with. One of the ladies we knew was going through a difficult time with varying degrees of things going on in her life. I had some ideas for solutions for her challenges, so would spend time with her helping where I could. Slowly I found myself spending more and more time with her, as this continued I would think about her more and more.
I was in dangerous territory but could not see it.
I continued on thinking it is just a bit of fun. There is no danger in this, anyway I am in control. The fact is I was not in control at all. My emotions were so far out of control that everyone else must have surely seen it, but i was totally blind. I got to a point where I so much longed to be with her and sincerely believed she was the answer to all my problems. If only I could be with her then every thing would be fine, I would be living my dream life.
How deceived I was.
I was willing to break up a family and hurt all those who I loved so dearly for my own selfish desires.
That was more than 10 years ago and many time over that 10 years I have ask myself "how could you do that to the people who loved and trusted you?" I really don't have a reasonable answer. I just don't know what to say. I was totally out of control.
At all cost GUARD YOUR HEART.
Make sure you stay in control of your life.
Enjoy your Life,
Dave.
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